Yes, it is the first blog by me! I have been avoiding this altogether but I suppose it is no longer possible.
The reason I have not been active all that much lately is because I am stressed about some things. My grandmother is dying of lung and brain cancer, as you know. Her condition is steadily decreasing and my mother quit her job to move to Colorado and take care of her and my high-maintenance grandfather. I have never liked either of my grandparents and as I find out more about them I find myself despising them, not helped by the fact that my mother is forced to move away from her husband and children to take care of their sorry asses. To make matters worse, my sister has quit both of her summer jobs in order to move to Colorado for the summer. The reason she has done this is because my mother, while arguably a good daughter, is not capable of taking care of both her parents and dealing with my completely self-centered junkie asshole of an uncle, that is, her brother, who also lives in Colorado.
On top of this matter, one of my brothers may be bipolar. He refused to be tested for it and completely flips his shit whenever anyone mentions it. Frequently he flies off the handle, often at the baiting of my other, older brother, who is dealing with ADD problems and control issues, as well as his tendency towards misanthropy.
There is little I can do to solve any of these problems, and instead of enjoying a relaxing summer vacation I am staying at home and helping my father with the housework, which is always quite the ordeal because he has mental health problems and is unable to be happy in any household that is the slightest bit dirty. Also, he is missing my mother, whom he has not been away from for more than a week since they got married 25 years ago.
Spelling out all my problems like this has made me feel miserable, but I can only hope that things will improve with speed. The fact that what will help my family most is the death of my grandparents, as much as I dislike them, makes me feel awful. I believe this is a situation that not even the greatest amount of hot chocolate can help. That does not stop me from trying.
The reason I have not been active all that much lately is because I am stressed about some things. My grandmother is dying of lung and brain cancer, as you know. Her condition is steadily decreasing and my mother quit her job to move to Colorado and take care of her and my high-maintenance grandfather. I have never liked either of my grandparents and as I find out more about them I find myself despising them, not helped by the fact that my mother is forced to move away from her husband and children to take care of their sorry asses. To make matters worse, my sister has quit both of her summer jobs in order to move to Colorado for the summer. The reason she has done this is because my mother, while arguably a good daughter, is not capable of taking care of both her parents and dealing with my completely self-centered junkie asshole of an uncle, that is, her brother, who also lives in Colorado.
On top of this matter, one of my brothers may be bipolar. He refused to be tested for it and completely flips his shit whenever anyone mentions it. Frequently he flies off the handle, often at the baiting of my other, older brother, who is dealing with ADD problems and control issues, as well as his tendency towards misanthropy.
There is little I can do to solve any of these problems, and instead of enjoying a relaxing summer vacation I am staying at home and helping my father with the housework, which is always quite the ordeal because he has mental health problems and is unable to be happy in any household that is the slightest bit dirty. Also, he is missing my mother, whom he has not been away from for more than a week since they got married 25 years ago.
Spelling out all my problems like this has made me feel miserable, but I can only hope that things will improve with speed. The fact that what will help my family most is the death of my grandparents, as much as I dislike them, makes me feel awful. I believe this is a situation that not even the greatest amount of hot chocolate can help. That does not stop me from trying.
Tue Jul 13, 2010 7:24 am by Katls
